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    You were in Russia's bed, his arms wrapped around you waist. He always did this, he always held you like a teddy bear. But in truth the teddy bear in the relationship was Russia. Russia would come home late sometimes. And usually in those late home arrivals he looked so worn out and tired. His face would show a dull expression, but for some reason every time he saw you he would show you the tiniest of smiles even if he was exhausted. He knew you wouldn't go to sleep until he arrived home. One time he asked you why you waited for him. And you told him that it was because you didn't have your teddy bear with you.  

 

    You knew he had an exhausting day, dealing with everything in his country, and dealing with all the other countries. You would hold Russia tight and put your head on his chest, hearing the rhythmic pattern of his large heart. Hearing every breath his lungs would breathe in. You felt him play with your hair. At his touch you looked up into his violet eyes. They looked softer in the light of the moon that was glistening through the open curtain.

 

   He was looking at you with eyes full of hope, but behind that hope you saw fear. You knew about Russia's past, how he like every other country had the blood of many stain his country. You knew he was afraid of losing you, as much as you were afraid of losing him. You held onto him tighter remembering your fear. You held onto him and you closed your eyes. Trying to keep the fear form ruining the moment. Russia feeling you discomfort held you tighter. He could feel the fear that was coursing through your veins. You both held onto each other like this for quite some time. Trying to prove that nothing could take you away from each other’s warmth. 

 

   When the beating of your heart calmed down, you let out a sigh, and opened your eyes. The uncertainty that was in your heart faded, and all that mattered was the presence of your teddy bear. You looked up into his eyes and you felt yourself start to shed tears. You knew that you would just look at your reflection. You squeezed your teddy bear. You tried to remember the warmth it gave you moments ago. You tried to remember the melody of the heart beat you wished to hear. The soft breath you felt escape his lungs. You started to cry, and you asked your teddy bear in sorrow, "What's wrong teddy bear? Please tell me." You knew something was wrong. "Teddy bear please tell me, teddy bear...teddy bear.”, you pleaded. "It's no use teddy bear; I know you won't answer me." "I know you’re not here any more and all I have to remember you is this stuffed bear." "You should have known that when you left me, this bear wouldn't heat the cold in my soul. Wouldn't fill the loss in my heart." "Why did you leave? It should have been me. Teddy bear, it should have been me...."

 

It had been a month since you lost your teddy bear. Since you buried him in the unforgiving earth. He had saved you, from a drunk driver. But in return he gave up his life. The pain of loss was unbearable. It didn't help that on your birthday, just a week after you lost him. You heard a knock on your door; you saw a huge teddy bear when you opened the door. For some reason you expected to see Russia behind the huge teddy bear. Your heart filled with hope. Then it was shot down, when you saw a delivery man look over the side of the teddy bear. "Um, is this the Braginski household?" he asked. "Y-yes", you replied trying to keep the tears at bay. Every time you heard his name it was as if ice crystals started to fill your heart. "I have a birthday delivery. It says here to deliver it to the most beautiful woman in the world. Is that you?" he looked at you waiting for an answer. Ivan always told you this; right before you fell asleep he would tell you if you knew you were the most beautiful woman in the world. "Yes.", you responded quickly the tears starting to break through their confinement. "May you sign this please." he held out the device you usually had to sign on. After you finished he handed you the teddy bear. "Happy birthday, miss" he said as he left. 

 

You closed the door, as it shut behind you, the tears started to escape one by one. You set the teddy bear on your kitchen counter, that's when you saw a card attached to the teddy bear's bow. That card was unmistakenly written by Ivan. There written on this card were Ivan's last words. "I'm so sorry I couldn't give you this myself, my precious sunflower. But here it is a big teddy bear to keep you warm when I'm not here. When I'm not in your arms. Happy Birthday, my one and only. With much love, Ivan your teddy bear." Your heart finally broke to a million pieces. The time you spent trying to put the pieces back together was now nothing. You held onto the teddy bear, trying to keep yourself from losing your mind. Trying to feel Russia once more with you. "Oh, Ivan...my big fluffy teddy bear. How I wish to be in your arms once more."  

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ShadowPearce Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2015
(╥﹏╥) why you do dis? Do you take pleasure in my heartache and tears? I thought this would be happy one but no its just a fucking feel factory. I apologize for cussing.
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2Shadowswho Featured By Owner May 31, 2015
WHYYY IM CRYIN AND HUGGING MY IVAN BEARGINSKY (my big teddy bear) AND MY RUSSIA DOLL
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Fandom202 Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2015
*reads first paragraph*
Aww! How sweet!
*reads the ending*
wHhY must you do this to me?!?
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maricurie90 Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2015  Student Writer
*crying hysterically in front of my grandmother*
Grandma: What happened this time?
Me: *sniffle* NOTHINGGGG*mopes in the backseat of car*
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O-OH MY GOD IM CRYINGGGGG
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the2nut2ball2 Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
*cries in a corner*
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NerdINC12 Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2015  Hobbyist Artist
*sadly laughing* *goes into corner* ;-; Crying Charmandar 
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emily-blair Featured By Owner Edited Jan 17, 2015
damn!!! that feels!!!!!!!! i was feeling kinda down and read some reader inserts to cheer me up a little but then i read this i thought it'll be fluffy and stuff.. but.... i want to hate you but i cant the story was good but it hurts too much in the feels!!!!!!!!!! its just.... wwwhhhhhaaaaaa!!!!! soooooo saaaaaaaddddddd!!!!!
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Celestmorning Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2015
THE FEELS Cry forever 
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kierstencupcake Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2015
Hiyori Crying Icon I just cant, I cried so hard when that twist cameSam Crying Dean Crying 
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pollyboo Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I cried  when i saw the last two paragraghs why Ivan WHHYYY!!! T.T Me sad now *sniffle*
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Misteria2477 Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I thought this was going to be cute but instead it was a plate full of lies!!!!!!! (Amazing story btw)
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xXMusic-MuseXx Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for making me cry. This is the third time today. :( Good story though! Nice writing.
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hetaliafan1924 Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2014
*crying eyes out* THE FRIGGEN FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSCry forever Jake crying plz Run Cry 
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IS831fan9 Featured By Owner May 22, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELS!!!!!! :iconimdeadplz:
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Noom191 Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I EXPECTED FLUFF!! WHY DO YOU BREAK MY FEELS SO!!!Cry emote Cry forever Pikachu Crying Plz crying STITCH LLORA Cry run 1 
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tlbawesome Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2014
I did not cry but you actually made me a tad sad that is really hard so good job
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CambersCoolChic Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014   Writer
*cries* so many feeeelllzzzz!!!
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Treekoi Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2013  Student General Artist
Excuse me for a moment while I shed tears for this bittersweet story. Wonderfully written, even if we all are sopping messes
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Alli881 Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2013
Oh god! *bawls*
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Bleached-Angel Featured By Owner May 16, 2013  Student Writer
*crys* S so g g good
oh I love you Russia
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BlueLight01 Featured By Owner May 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
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I love the bittersweet ending!!!!!
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AnzhelinaMenshutkin Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2013  Student
I'm crying right now................ TEDDY BEAR! WHY?! WHY, TEDDY BEAR?! AND WHY DID I HAVE TO PUT BAD APPLE IN RUSSIAN WHILE READING THIS?!
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Renamon83 Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013  Student
;u; It was amazing
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Oresama401 Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2013
i love the story, and i also love how you write. It also made me cry a bit.
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DaughterOfErberus Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2013
And now I'm depressed, excuse me whilst I go to the emo corner of depression :iconsulkplz: On a happier note : I loved this cute, caring side to Ivan!
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Pussia Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
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sword-X-princess Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2013  Student Artist
Excuse me while I cry into my pillow for a while. ;~;
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Bluefur101 Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2013
W-what? No, Ivan. *cries in a corner*
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PockyandAnime Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013
What a nice story .... now I'm sad though .... D: .... TT.TT ..... this story was wonderful .....
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AlikaKamashi Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2013  Student General Artist
After seeing all the comments about sad I am like noooo sad T.T But I want to read it so bad So I suppose I shall
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AlikaKamashi Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2013  Student General Artist
NOOOOOOOO T.T so sad..........T.T and he was a ninja even in death with that teddy bear T>T
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PhoenixOfWinterfell Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013  Student Writer
:iconcryforeverplz: What you have done with my feelings???
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scarlettrouge13 Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013   Writer
that was beautifully sad *sob*
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sigyn1 Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013
*sobs in a corner and clings to the teddy bear*
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FemSovietRussia Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
....s so sad... Im crying..
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FlyingPastaKitty Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
*sobs* So sad. I teared up a bit.
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XRussiaxPrussiaX Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2013
;( Wow, that was deep...
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